I’ve been conducting an experiment of sorts and the findings are satisfactory.
This experiment has been stripping things away and seeing how I feel. Who I am.
Am I enough without throwing a billion parties? Yes.
Am I enough without a job? Yes.
Am I enough without gym workouts? Yep.
Am I enough without attending every event? Yeah.
I have discovered that I am enough without Twitter. What’s the opposite of regret? That’s what I have about quitting Twitter.
We’re enough if Reese isn’t enrolled in dance/music/tumbling/flower crown making/advanced calculus.
As it turns out I am enough even if I don’t finish, or even start, a library book.
I decided to detox from eyelash extensions and truly, hilariously, I was afraid I wouldn’t be pretty enough without them. But of course I’m fine???? There is something seriously wrong with me if I am addicted and reliant on something so vain and material. It’s been really really nice to realize that I am enough without them.
It’s only day 2 of a 10 day social media cleanse challenged by the prophet and I’m loving how I feel ~without. I have more time. I have more peace. I have more intention.
I will probably re-download eventually, but oh, how good it feels to know that I’m enough without.
What else am I enough without? What more can I strip away from my life to find more space, more breathing room? Are there other things I can trim away so I have less weighing me down as I go the distance?
THIS is what self-care actually is, and this experiment has been incredible. I’ve had a few really cool breakthroughs and realizations as, over the last year or so, I’ve used this knowledge to solve all my problems and live happily ever after. Well, basically. Almost. A little bit.
Next week I’m gonna share my self-care series: a step-by-step guide to functional, healthy self-care. And I am so excited!!!!! I hope it is valuable and helpful. My hot mess should at least be worth something, right?